work today. didnt wna go one okay.
turtle persuaded me. and he succeeded.
haha.
woke up early, very.
prepared, and off to sy's house,
take stuff , bus'd again to serangoon &
train'd to habourfront , meet turtle and his friends.
so weird at first.
didnt talk to the 2 of them.
bus'd to that ulu place, *artspace@heltrans?
i cant rmbr alr. it's somewhr near vivo.
start'd crapping w turtle's friend.
new friends : li qi & han long.
:D
liqi kept entertain'g me cox he said i look v sian. haha.
& kept psycho'g me to go drink'g w him!
talk'd about r/s, sec sch life, driving stuffs,
his partying life.
turtle&Iwerechattingaboutsecschlife.
and update each other about our life too! (: (:
oh wait! arent i suppose to be talk'g about my job?
okay, it's damn slack, i tell you.
only handful of ppl came for the art exhibition.
we even have time crapp'g, laughing.
walkd around the place, saw their artwork.
it's damn niceeeeee & take time to figure it out.
ppl who go thr are usually artists!
haha! :X
work ended, liqi acc us to mrt,
and he went to take cab, while we train'd home.
(: he said IF he can borrow a car,
we will bring us to work tmw.
hehehehehhhhhh!
:D
butbutbut,
i just text'd turtle say'g
I'm tired, dont wna work.
and he let me off. haha!
PLS DONT READ (:
JUST FOR ME TO VENT IT OUT.
one emo post pls. last emo post alr. ):
sigh. idiotzhenlingisstillmissinghim. I ended this r/s yet i cant bear to let him go. i'm sucha sore loser. ): he's outside, enjoying, drinking while me? crying whenever i steppd into my room, hide myself trying not to let parents see me in this pathetic state. i teard while walk'g to busstop, while walking home, while alone in my room, while reading our blog, while tying this post. sucks,seriously. seems like i'm the one who cannot let it go. he didnt wna give in, he didnt ask me not to go, he didnt initiate anythg about patch'g thgs up. GG. maybe he cant wait to let me go? no wonder, he didnt wna meet me ever since nationalday? he didnt call me since idk when? even after not seeing me for weeks, he didnt ask me out. he didnt msg me since idk when. he didnt. WTH? no point thinking about it, idiotzhenling, he wants you to fuck off from his life!
why am i still holding on, why am i still thinking these w those constant flashback? I totally break down.
i'm sucha fucktard for being so weak, so sore, loving you so much, crying till I have no more tears to spare, emo'g alone . . .
He msgd me, ask'g me to find a better guy. & cried like maddog after that, w puffy eyes. ): idk what to do. how to carry on my life w/o him. sudden lost of my pillar of strength. howhow? ):
& i still cant bear to delete that blog. it's our memories, all inside it. )':i need a shoulder pls.
pls. awhile will do. )':
end of emo post. promised to publish happypost after tmw onwards.
